2019 was a real doozy. I feel the lightness and energy of 2020 like I have not felt in years. It is going to be so good. Just this week I have had two moments where I feel profound gratitude and elation for what has happened after much endurance and also some hard work.
10 years ago I remember being so frustrated with sleep deprivation as Darrin and I would get twins up diapered, fed, burped, and back to sleep many times throughout the night. That went on for years. Even when they weren’t nursing my sweet Elizabeth did not sleep through the night until she was almost 2. I was borderline psychotic almost the entire time. (Only 10% of that is a joke.)
Last Saturday Darrin and I woke in the morning twilight. We laid in bed as we heard children head to the kitchen to get themselves breakfast. The sun came up and shown through our bedroom windows. I went and got a cup of coffee and made us both toast. I came back to bed and we spent another hour talking. We drank in the beauty of the moment, and both of us recalled a decade earlier what life had been like.
We dreamed of this day. And it has come.. we laid in bed as we heard children I head to the kitchen to get themselves breakfast and the sun came up and shown through our bedroom window. I went and got a cup of coffee and made us both toast. I came back to bed and we spent another hour talking and appreciating the beauty of the moment and both of us recalled a decade earlier what life had been like.
We had dreamt of this day. And it has come. The Kairos moment was not lost on us.
Another moment of similar weight came today when I hopped on a treadmill and for the first time in my life ran a mile in under 8 minutes. I have always had a strong and sturdy body. And most of my life it has carried pounds of extra mass that make running a lot of work. I am a happy 10 minute mile kind of girl. Or I was. My half marathon at 12 minute mile was just fine. I am so proud of myself.
I did not know this day would ever be realized. I feel all the pride and joy and gratitude of every bit of having a working and capable body that does what I ask it to do. I say YES!!! to more of these moments in 2020.